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For Gabe Howard, Bipolar Disorder is Just Another Piece of the Puzzle

Curated by Claudia Shannon / Research Scientist / ishonest

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This article mentions feelings of depression, mania, and suicidal thoughts and actions.

If youre thinking of hurting yourself or are having suicidal thoughts, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 800-273-8255.You can also call 911 in the case of a mental health emergency.

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For Gabe Howard, it might seem like his journey with bipolar disorder started 17 years ago, at 28 years old. But in reality, it started much sooner.

Ive got the high points that I like to give people to turn it into something palpable to explain, Gabe says.

However, he notes that its a complicated story: For roughly the first 28 years of my life, I was very sick. Bipolar disorder was impacting my life in great ways, and I had no idea. I had no idea that I was sick.

Gabe is 45 years old and lives in Ohio. He works for PsychCentral, hosting their flagship podcast Inside Mental Health, as well as conducting his own speaking and writing engagements. Among many other projects and appearances, hes also written a book titled Mental Illness is an Asshole And Other Observations.

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Bipolar disorder has no cure, yet. But thanks to medication, therapy, and careful management, Gabe says that, nowadays, bipolar disorder impacts maybe 10 percent of my life and thats probably the lowest number that I could get [it] at.

This is whats important to know about bipolar disorder. And this is Gabes story.

What is bipolar disorder?

Bipolar disorder is a complex mental health condition that causes extreme shifts in mood and activity levels, ranging from high energy moods (mania or hypomania) to low energy moods (depression).

These severe ups and downs may make it difficult to carry on with daily life. Five million U.S. adults (2.8 percent) have a diagnosis of bipolar disorder. While theres currently no cure for bipolar disorder, it can be treated through medication, psychotherapy, and other methods.

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Symptoms of bipolar disorder often include:

  • Manic episodes. In these episodes, people with bipolar disorder feel invincible. A manic episode can last at least a week and may include things like elevated self-esteem, extreme happiness, needing less sleep, racing thoughts, and engaging in risky behaviors, among others.
  • Hypomanic episodes. Hypomania is similar to mania, but episodes tend to be shorter and less severe.
  • Depression. Depressive episodes can include fatigue, feelings of worthlessness, hopelessness, suicidal thoughts or actions, and more.

While researchers dont know exactly what causes bipolar disorder, its likely that genetics, brain chemistry, and life experiences all play a role. Bipolar disorder is diagnosed by a mental health professional like a psychologist or psychiatrist.

What having bipolar means for Gabe

I was 28 years old when I found out that everybody doesnt think about killing themselves every day.

Gabe is straightforward about his experience with bipolar disorder. For his entire life, he explains, he felt like he was sick. Bipolar affected him in ways he didnt even realize. He would party for 3 days straight when he was manic, and then would skip events because of the resulting depression and crash.

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He thought about suicide as far back as he could remember literally, I was born thinking about killing myself. And he didnt know any of this was unusual until he reached a breaking point at 28 years old, when he had a plan to commit suicide and was in the process of ending his own life.

Gabe had a friend whose mother was a psychiatric nurse. She approached him and asked if he was thinking about killing himself. He said yes and he was so glad she asked.

Gabes friend convinced him to go to the emergency room, where medical personnel began asking him questions.

The questions sort of had a pattern to them, you know, like a process And I thought to myself, why are these questions written down? How did they know I was coming? Thats weird, right?

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Eventually, Gabe realized: There was a protocol happening here. A routine. They were just doing the thing. They werent doing this for Gabe they were doing this for somebody who comes in talking about suicide. Which means I was in the right place. And that was sort of domino number 1 that my brain just wasnt working, and that something was wrong.

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Gabe was admitted to a psychiatric hospital and spent 4 days in the mental health unit, where he was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. He was also prescribed his first bipolar disorder medications. However, it ended up taking him 4 years to reach a stable place with therapy, coping skills, and the right medications.

Gabe also went through systematic treatment enhancement program (STEP) therapy, a type of intensive outpatient therapy.

I was released into that type of program that you do for 6 weeks. I learned a lot about bipolar disorder, I learned a lot about medication, I learned a lot about a lot of things.

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Over the next 4 years which Gabe refers to as his 4-year epic battle against bipolar disorder Gabe learned a lot of coping skills to deal with the condition. Understanding what behaviors were normal and learning which things were driven by bipolar disorder versus his personality took a long time.

Today, Gabe says that although it can vary, he feels that bipolar disorder impacts maybe 10 percent of his life.

I could go months without having a bipolar episode, but as I did mention, I do have to take medication in the morning, and I do have to take medication at night. I have to keep up with my doctors appointments. And I need to be aware of whats going on in my body, he says. Am I crying at the movie because its a sad movie, or am I crying at the movie because its depression starting and I need to get ahead of it? Im always doing some of these things, so its something that always takes just a little bit of time.

How I manage having bipolar disorder

For Gabe, its important to stay on top of his medication, therapy, and other things that help him manage his bipolar disorder. He lists four simple apps on his phone that have made a huge difference in helping him manage and cope.

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BetterHelp is an online therapy app that connects you with a qualified therapist. For some users, BetterHelp sessions can be more accessible and affordable than in-person therapy.

Gabe uses the BetterHelp app for online therapy. He loves the convenience a flexible schedule with no need for a commute as well as the messaging feature.

I can type things in as they happen The advantage of that is sometimes the thing that really impacted you on Monday, by the time you get to your appointment on Thursday, maybe its glossed over. Because I was able to send that message [to my therapist], she can bring it up [in our session].

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There are so many pluses to online therapy, Gabe says. And for him, the ability to contact his therapist anytime is one of the best.

Google Calendar

Price: Free

Google Calendar sends you alerts or notifications, helping to remind you to take medications or complete other tasks.

For Gabe, staying on top of his medication every morning and evening is one of the major keys to managing his bipolar disorder. Thats why he uses Google Calendar to send him an alert to take his medication. When Gabe first started taking medication, the calendar apps notification made a huge difference in helping him get into the habit.

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Its also very helpful when I travel, Gabe says. Its so easy, being in different time zones, to forget to take your medication or not even think about it because theres so much other stuff going on. Theres that reminder.

Although phone privacy settings may vary, Gabe adds another benefit of Google Calendar over other pill reminder apps: Google Calendar does not collect data for pharma companies, which can be a relief to people living with bipolar disorder who might experience paranoia.

Price: Free

Nobody believes me when I say this, Gabe says, but I find social media to be helpful.

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Notes provides a place to brain dump angry thoughts and revisit them later when youre in a calmer headspace.

Gabe uses the generic notepad app on his phone to help him calm down and think through situations. In a situation where he might be tempted to instantly react with anger, Gabe instead writes down everything hes thinking in the notes app. He gives himself some space and then returns 24 hours later to read his notes.

Before learning this coping skill, learning this method, I burned a lot of bridges over what I later found out were literally simple misunderstandings, Gabe explains. Utilizing this method, calming down, waiting 24 hours to react has prevented a lot of problems.

What should people know about bipolar disorder?

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In a 2019 research review, researchers estimated that 4% to 19% of mostly untreated people with bipolar disorder end their lives by suicide. The same study found that 20% to 60% of people with bipolar disorder will attempt suicide at least once in their lifetimes.

Gabe also notes that its likely there are many more deaths caused by this condition, but that percentages can be difficult to track.

When someone with bipolar disorder dies, theres always this question of, did they die because they had mania and thought they could fly, or did they just slip off the roof and fall?

Another point he brings up is that bipolar disorder can go asymptomatic for a long time.

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Its one of the things people dont realize about bipolar disorder. Weeks, months. In some cases, even years, depending on who you are.

He describes bipolar disorder as a spectrum, ranging from suicidal depression to God-like mania.

But also in that spectrum, theres a middle the normal, the stereotypical, the average. And when youre in that middle part, you can really look at the extremes and think, well, why did I do that? And, if you dont understand what the hell is going on you come up with the wrong answer.


Gabe has always had bipolar disorder. Gabe will always have bipolar disorder. But thanks to continued treatment and management, he now defines his recovery like this: Spending more time living life than managing bipolar.

For him, thats a good life.

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